My ramblings...
It's getting to that time of year when you take into account everything that's happened in the past year and also the years leading up to that moment. You take stock of what you have, where you are, and where you're heading. You try and figure out if you're happy or not and to either be satisfied with what you've accomplished or make plans to aim towards happiness. You try to clear up some of that fog that's been hanging over you for too long and start aiming towards something. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm trying to figure out what on earth I'm doing with my life and use this coming week to plan what I want to achieve.
My week has been awful. It's been the longest week ever. We had skeleton staff on yesterday at work and we were meant to leave after lunch. Our job being what it was there was problems with banks and settlements extended and three of us didn't manage to get out of there until 5pm. I'm probably going to be there all day Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. It would be nice to have some time off, but I guess I had a week off not long ago so I shouldn't complain.
I have managed to accomplish something this week, I'm up to writing page 4 of my script. It's only taken me a week, and I did most of it last night. Oh well, a start is a start.
I hope you all have a Merry Christmas. 12/23/2006 04:45:00 PM
My week has been awful. It's been the longest week ever. We had skeleton staff on yesterday at work and we were meant to leave after lunch. Our job being what it was there was problems with banks and settlements extended and three of us didn't manage to get out of there until 5pm. I'm probably going to be there all day Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. It would be nice to have some time off, but I guess I had a week off not long ago so I shouldn't complain.
I have managed to accomplish something this week, I'm up to writing page 4 of my script. It's only taken me a week, and I did most of it last night. Oh well, a start is a start.
I hope you all have a Merry Christmas. 12/23/2006 04:45:00 PM
My life...
I'm sick of being afraid. I'm sick of looking back in regret. I'm sick of wondering all the alternatives that could have been. I'm sick of being in debt.
I want to be creative. I want a life full of painting, photos, writing, travelling, acting, directing, learning foreign languages, lazing on the beach, enjoying a cafe.
The problem is I like structure in my life. I also like to be in control of things. I'm afraid if I give in to this urge to achieve this dream for life I have then I'll lose what little control. And afterall, we are all in control of our own lives.
I just have to figure out a way to live the way I want while digging myself out of this hole of debt I'm in. 12/10/2006 10:59:00 PM
I want to be creative. I want a life full of painting, photos, writing, travelling, acting, directing, learning foreign languages, lazing on the beach, enjoying a cafe.
The problem is I like structure in my life. I also like to be in control of things. I'm afraid if I give in to this urge to achieve this dream for life I have then I'll lose what little control. And afterall, we are all in control of our own lives.
I just have to figure out a way to live the way I want while digging myself out of this hole of debt I'm in. 12/10/2006 10:59:00 PM
My confession
You know when you're in THAT mood. The kind where you don't know who you are or why you should even have ambitions and dreams because there is no way that YOU can achieve them. You want to be something special but you just don't want to try anymore and you decide that you are just as good as your current situation. How do you get yourself out of that mood. How do you let your spirit soar again, your soul breathe, and your head free of overwhelming, weighing down thoughts.
I have a confession, when I'm in that mood I watch "View From The Top". Yes, not the most awe-inspiring movie for most. Damn it all, if that blonde bimbo can achieve what she achieves than surely I can achieve what I set my mind to.
The clock's ticking over to 10:30pm shortly, I have Final Draft open and I'm staring at a blank screen and thinking that I should either a) go to bed or b) watch the above mentioned movie, stay up late and start on some of these projects.
At the moment option a) is winning by a country mile.
So, out of interest what gets you inspired? 12/04/2006 09:45:00 PM
I have a confession, when I'm in that mood I watch "View From The Top". Yes, not the most awe-inspiring movie for most. Damn it all, if that blonde bimbo can achieve what she achieves than surely I can achieve what I set my mind to.
The clock's ticking over to 10:30pm shortly, I have Final Draft open and I'm staring at a blank screen and thinking that I should either a) go to bed or b) watch the above mentioned movie, stay up late and start on some of these projects.
At the moment option a) is winning by a country mile.
So, out of interest what gets you inspired? 12/04/2006 09:45:00 PM