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3/31/2004 07:47:00 AM
I'm coming down with a flu. Anyone who's willing to take it away will be compensated with hugs, kisses, and being numerously told how much I love you. I watched the Life of David Gale today, and Igby Goes Down last name. Man, I love those movies. They're so good.
3/28/2004 07:10:00 PM
So no cyclone; the monsoonal low drifted south-eastward and developed into cyclone Grace somewhere between us and New Zealand. We had that much rain that I was sure the whole city was ready to be flooded. There were rivers overflowing that people could not cross to get into town, or out; the mountain range roads had landslides, and the most pisturesque of them all had car-sized rocks crowding the road; someone ended up with a nice hunk of a red-soiled hill in their backyard. This all from a would-be cyclone.
I haven't been feeling all that crash hot lately. In fact I feel like it's about time I went to visit the doctor about this depression I seem to suffer from so often. I think it's the summer weather. Isn't summer a time to be nice and tanned, bikini clad, and spend long evenings on the beach around bonfires questioning the state of the universe?
I haven't seen much of him this week, and it makes me mad and frustrated. Perhaps this space has been just what I've needed though, to question a lot of things I've been too afraid to ask myself. I hate to admit it, but I'm even questioning what the point of our relationship is sometimes. I can't imagine myself with anyone else, and I can't imagine myself wanting to be with someone else, and it scares the life out of me sometimes that I just feel numb. I feel like I'm compromising parts of me that I shouldn't compromise. I want someone who's going to tell me exactly how they feel about me, about how I make them feel. Then I realise that the whole situation is not ordinary, and I wonder what would have happened if we would have met in a more normal way. Whether these would still be issues. I just feel that regardless of the distance, regardless of everything else we have going against us, I want nothing more than to be with him, and it hurts for him to not say the same. I miss him so much.
I currently have $13 to my name.
3/27/2004 10:19:00 AM
I haven't been feeling all that crash hot lately. In fact I feel like it's about time I went to visit the doctor about this depression I seem to suffer from so often. I think it's the summer weather. Isn't summer a time to be nice and tanned, bikini clad, and spend long evenings on the beach around bonfires questioning the state of the universe?
I haven't seen much of him this week, and it makes me mad and frustrated. Perhaps this space has been just what I've needed though, to question a lot of things I've been too afraid to ask myself. I hate to admit it, but I'm even questioning what the point of our relationship is sometimes. I can't imagine myself with anyone else, and I can't imagine myself wanting to be with someone else, and it scares the life out of me sometimes that I just feel numb. I feel like I'm compromising parts of me that I shouldn't compromise. I want someone who's going to tell me exactly how they feel about me, about how I make them feel. Then I realise that the whole situation is not ordinary, and I wonder what would have happened if we would have met in a more normal way. Whether these would still be issues. I just feel that regardless of the distance, regardless of everything else we have going against us, I want nothing more than to be with him, and it hurts for him to not say the same. I miss him so much.
I currently have $13 to my name.
3/27/2004 10:19:00 AM
There's only so many times I can say I miss you, without it sounding like it's recycled.
3/25/2004 11:50:00 PM
Well, all the exciting stuff happens around here. There's a tropical low sitting off the coastline and it's expected it will form into a cyclone, well probably five minutes after I go to bed. Going by with exaggerations with a hint of truth, there's a chance power might be cut for a while, or corrugated iron will decapitate me, or possibly a tree will just fall on our house. So possibly there's a chance I might not be around for a few days (well not that I've been updating much anyway). I just thought I'd let you know incase I don't appear for six months and then you can assume the worst.
Positive note: I may get my journalism assignment done if I've got nothing else to do. Hrmm, I have to do it anyway. Oh well. 3/19/2004 11:42:00 PM
Positive note: I may get my journalism assignment done if I've got nothing else to do. Hrmm, I have to do it anyway. Oh well. 3/19/2004 11:42:00 PM
I can't stop thinking about you and it gives me butterflies.
3/18/2004 10:09:00 PM
I can't get this smile off my face. I feel like the luckiest girl alive. I get a bit scared when I start thinking about spending the future with him. Questioning what's ahead, rather than the right now. I'm happy. Who cares if I'm secretly trying to plot out what's to come, or if I'm not?
"I really like you, but I feel there may be another L-word that might also be applicable in this situation" 3/15/2004 10:09:00 PM
"I really like you, but I feel there may be another L-word that might also be applicable in this situation" 3/15/2004 10:09:00 PM
Maybe it's just me but when someone disappears from my life, it may be for a day or a year, I get so annoyed. I get so pissed off. I wonder what's wrong with me for them to disappear. This hatred and pity then turns into a stone scraping the bottom of my stomach as I wonder what's wrong with them, and hope like hell that they aren't lying in a gutter dead somewhere. I miss you. Come back soon.
3/08/2004 07:38:00 PM
I was going to update, but I feel way too pissed off with everything and everyone right now to bother.
3/07/2004 02:37:00 PM
Okay, so I'm going to have my head in my textbooks for I don't know how long. Indefinitely I might predict. So if you feel the need to 1) annoy me, 2) interrupt me, 3) want to know if I'm still alive, or 4) want to chat to me, my SMS details are in my ICQ details.
3/06/2004 02:04:00 PM
runs through tearing her hair out...
3/03/2004 06:48:00 PM