RSM // journal

What is it that attracts you to someone who types (and probably) speaks like a twelve year-old?

I can't stop thinking about you. You mean so much to me. I feel like I need some justification for feeling this way. As soon as I think that things may not work, you turn around and say something that surprises the hell out of me, and I remember how much you really do care. I want to hear those spontaneous comments every day of my life.

I want to feel special every day of my life. I want to build myself into someone you're proud to be with. I want to be someone else.
9/30/2003 07:02:00 PM

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
9/29/2003 07:27:00 PM

I'm very confused about some things right now. I've applied to study Journalism at the local university. I'm planning on a double degree, but I'm not sure whether it should be Business or Communications. Ergh. No matter what, next year is going to be a big year of changes. Should I apply for campus accom, or should I rent my own place, or should I buy a cheap place before I quit work?
9/28/2003 10:06:00 AM

I feel the need to confront her and find out if it's true. I won't though.
9/25/2003 09:39:00 PM

Well I did it, I sent in my application for uni. I felt very content, until I started freaking that perhaps I did not fill the form in correctly. Erggghhh. The life of a worry wart.
9/25/2003 08:54:00 PM

Eventually, the people you love and those you hold close to your heart come clean. You finally realise what these people are really like. You swear to yourself that you will never talk, trust or want to know of them again.
9/22/2003 09:53:00 PM

And for some excitement, I've added something I started working on tonight into the commitment section. Enjoy.
9/20/2003 11:42:00 PM

Am I always going to feel like second best?
9/20/2003 10:24:00 PM

I am capable of anything.
9/17/2003 09:36:00 PM

I'm back. I'm alive. I'm just getting over a week-long bout of the flu.

The trip was good, and I may perhaps write more later. I have more pressing issues on my mind.

I've made some decisions for the next six months (minimally) and I'm excited. They involve quitting, travelling and study. Today, I haven't been more content. Someone who accepts me and treats me well. The lifting of a spirit finally finding what she wants. The purchase of the Chicago cd which included a free (read: included in the price) money purse and mascara.

More to come, as news unfolds....
9/16/2003 07:44:00 PM