RSM // journal

Ellabel, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.

Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.

Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.

Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.

You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."

With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.


Thanks Tanner
7/30/2003 07:05:00 PM

I'm thinking about going vegetarian again....
7/27/2003 10:27:00 PM

I wish I could find the motivation to write. I like the way that sometimes, in the right mood, the words just gel together. It's as though they're meant to be together. I wish I could write like that all the time. I wish I could make a career of it.

My sister got her hair bleached today. It's now "true white". We're thinking she should get dreadlocks and start calling herself Angelina.

Overheard at shopping centre today:
Grandmother: If you always wash the dishes, you'll always have clean nails.
Little Girl: I washed the dishes this morning.
Grandmother: That explains why you've got clean nails then.

I brought work home with me again this weekend. Lots of work. I am a workaholic.

My ICQ is now back up and running. My UIN is 5709203 if anyone's looking for me.
7/26/2003 08:19:00 PM

So....I've just been working on my budget, and decided that I'll never get out of here.
7/20/2003 10:45:00 PM

Okay, so ICQ is totally up you know what creek, and MSN messenger doesn't think much more of me.
7/20/2003 05:02:00 PM

I've having ICQ issues. It never shows me online, and it never shows anyone else online. So e-mail me or something, okay?

You've only been gone for five minutes, but I miss you already
7/20/2003 01:08:00 AM

I want to say so much, and tell you everything I'm too afraid to tell everyone else. Like that I can't imagine living past the age of thirty, and that I think that aliens planted me here to learn all I can about the human race. I want to tell you how much you remind me of another I loved, until I found out that he was nothing that she pretended to be (no typing errors there). I want to tell you how much I've been smothered by others who wanted me less than you did, and that I guess I miss being smothered, and enjoyed, and suffocated by that uneasy feeling of being needed. I want to tell you how I want to learn about you, I want to share the little things with you, I want to watch how you brush your teeth in the morning and get ready for work. I want you to understand the ways you make me feel, the way you make me believe I’m capable of achieving anything, the way you point out the only logical explanation and procedures of things, the ways you push me to put deadlines and finalise the things I’m afraid to jump head-first into. I want to tell you about all the others who said you were no good for me, and the others who said you were too good to me, and the others who said I just liked the thought of being with you more than anything, and the others who thought you were right for me. I want to tell you about the doubts I’ve had, and the temptations I’ve had, and the others I pushed away for you. I want to explain it all, but I can’t find the words, or the way, or the time to explain it. I want to tell you how much I miss you.
7/17/2003 08:55:00 PM

Can you sleep? I can't. Do you feel like eating? I don't. After two and a half years, you expect me to not want to spend so much time with you. Obviously, me two and a half years of convenience hasn't been enough.
7/14/2003 07:28:00 AM

Congrats, you've just lost the best thing that ever happened to you.
7/13/2003 02:39:00 AM

Read: The Shipping News - Anne Proulx
Reading: If Life is a Game, These are the Rules - Cherie Carter-Scott; Middlesex - Jeffrey Eugenides
Going to Read: Europe on a Shoestring

Watched: ER (Season Final); 24 (The Final Truth - Second Series); America's Sweethearts.
Watching: The Shield; The Block; Black Hawk Down.
Going to Watch: CSI:Miami; Without a Trace; America's Sweethearts.

Listened: Grace - Jeff Buckley; Chicago (Soundtrack)
Listening: 0304 - Jewel; Self-titled - Weezer.
Going to Listen: The Essential Frank Sinatra.

Felt: loved; ambitious; invincible.
Feeling: empty; depressed; tired; dragging my feet through each day; as how I get treated.
Going to Feel: justified.

Updated: Friday 04 July.
Update Saturday 12 July.
Going to Update: When I next feel the need to.

On hiatus until further notice.
7/12/2003 09:45:00 PM

I have to wonder if this emptiness is ever going to ease.
7/04/2003 08:25:00 PM

I watch u while you're sleeping
Messy hair, chest bare, moonlight on your skin
I wanna breathe u in
In the silence, words come easy
I can tell u now just how simple it's been 2 let u in
Don't move, this mood is a painting
We'll never find the same thing
[CHORUS]
Love, do not make a sound
Melt into me now
2 become 1
Love is so close 2 hurting
With a shake we could wake from our own dreaming
But we must make a vow
'Cause I have waited a lifetime
Now is the right time
[CHORUS]
Love, let's make time stand still
Let this moment last until
2 become 1
Like a bird owns its wings
Like a song belongs 2 melody
U belong 2 me
I fold your arms around me
Let your flesh, your breath, your love, surround me
Oh, u feel like home
[CHORUS]
"2 Become 1" - Jewel

I heard this song for the first time last night, and it made me cry. I'm such a sap sometimes.
7/04/2003 07:14:00 AM