Does anyone else get this deep-seated pain in their stomach, when something you've worked towards for a while isn't going to plan? I think it's my inability to be patient and to let things be the way they are. I'm always forward planning, always forward dreaming, always thinking about what COULD be. It's one of my downfalls unfortunately.
3/31/2002 10:25:00 AM
I know I should update before you people stone me to death, but I've got two days left to technically do that. Love me nevertheless won't you?
3/31/2002 09:35:00 AM
Got a webcam. I can be a camwhore now. Who wants to set it up for me?
3/29/2002 06:31:00 PM
Someone pay for me to study journalism/communications in the United States, Canada or Europe. I'm not fussy.
3/24/2002 08:47:00 PM
"What's the matter?" You are, you're the problem. You're the root of all evil. I can't take it anymore. You're conversation is neither stimulating, nor exciting. Anytime you think it is, you're being egotistical. Nobody enjoys your have done, am doing, will do - just because you've done it Bel. Don't suffocate me.
I need to send a big thank you to Trev. Your mail cheered me up. It was just what I needed.
I've got too many doubts right now to write anymore. 3/20/2002 10:10:00 PM
I need to send a big thank you to Trev. Your mail cheered me up. It was just what I needed.
I've got too many doubts right now to write anymore. 3/20/2002 10:10:00 PM
I had a strange dream the other night about an old lady who was preparing her possessions for her death. This lady, my grandmother (but not my grandmother) pointed her finger at me and announced "you will be the master of languages". Not exactly a flaming pie, I know.
I'm not too sure I know what caused my bizarre dream. It could have been the viewing of a recent episode of "Everybody Loves Raymond" where Deborah discovers she can't cook and Marie gives her, her recipe cards (does anyone else know this episode, or am I showing my true, imperfect self?). It could also be fuelled by my desire to trace my family tree lately. Or it could just be my deep seated fear of dying.
I've been thinking too much lately, which probably isn't a good thing. I think enough as it is. I should really get some more content to the commitment section, but energy has evaded me lately. I am now the only full-time secretary at work, with two part-time secretaries to train and think for all day. There is a third part-time secretary who has been working for my bosses for 10 years, at least she knows what she's doing. You all understand my lack of appearances lately now. 3/16/2002 05:11:00 PM
I'm not too sure I know what caused my bizarre dream. It could have been the viewing of a recent episode of "Everybody Loves Raymond" where Deborah discovers she can't cook and Marie gives her, her recipe cards (does anyone else know this episode, or am I showing my true, imperfect self?). It could also be fuelled by my desire to trace my family tree lately. Or it could just be my deep seated fear of dying.
I've been thinking too much lately, which probably isn't a good thing. I think enough as it is. I should really get some more content to the commitment section, but energy has evaded me lately. I am now the only full-time secretary at work, with two part-time secretaries to train and think for all day. There is a third part-time secretary who has been working for my bosses for 10 years, at least she knows what she's doing. You all understand my lack of appearances lately now. 3/16/2002 05:11:00 PM
I thought I should update on my highly exciting life. HAH!
I am extremely tired, and extremely depressed. The other secretaries at work are being a pain to get along with. Instead of one full-time secretary, we've had to replace that position with two part-time secretaries. Which means double the training, double the stress of having to find work, and most importantly, double the expended energy. I don't have much of that these days.
I have made a promise to myself to write more, and to accomplish more.
My shoulders are sore, my eyes are sore. I'm tired. 3/12/2002 06:55:00 PM
I am extremely tired, and extremely depressed. The other secretaries at work are being a pain to get along with. Instead of one full-time secretary, we've had to replace that position with two part-time secretaries. Which means double the training, double the stress of having to find work, and most importantly, double the expended energy. I don't have much of that these days.
I have made a promise to myself to write more, and to accomplish more.
My shoulders are sore, my eyes are sore. I'm tired. 3/12/2002 06:55:00 PM
The site's up in all its entirety I believe. Please report any broken links in the comments or e-mail them to me.
My Sunday has been pretty ordinary. I did watch "Remember the Titans" which is one of my favourite movies of all time. It has taken me forever to track down a copy of it as most of the department stores don't seem to stock it. Mental note:Next video to buy "The Hurricane".
I've slept most of the day, which isn't unusual for my Sunday. I've managed to publish this site too, finally, which is a big accomplishment for me. I've lacked the stamina or motivation to stick anything through lately.
I get a late start at work tomorrow which is great because I have to wash my car. So either I do it now, or I do it tomorrow morning. I'm guessing I'll probably just drive around in my dirty car for another week now.
I've been in a major funk lately. It's nothing personal to the people around me. I've just got the stage of thinking, "what's the use of having these ambitions when I'm never going to achieve them". Yes, I told you. Major funk. So to the people I owe an apology to, I'm sorry for my mood lately. You know who you are.
So I think it's time to leave. Confession is over. 3/10/2002 06:44:00 PM
My Sunday has been pretty ordinary. I did watch "Remember the Titans" which is one of my favourite movies of all time. It has taken me forever to track down a copy of it as most of the department stores don't seem to stock it. Mental note:Next video to buy "The Hurricane".
I've slept most of the day, which isn't unusual for my Sunday. I've managed to publish this site too, finally, which is a big accomplishment for me. I've lacked the stamina or motivation to stick anything through lately.
I get a late start at work tomorrow which is great because I have to wash my car. So either I do it now, or I do it tomorrow morning. I'm guessing I'll probably just drive around in my dirty car for another week now.
I've been in a major funk lately. It's nothing personal to the people around me. I've just got the stage of thinking, "what's the use of having these ambitions when I'm never going to achieve them". Yes, I told you. Major funk. So to the people I owe an apology to, I'm sorry for my mood lately. You know who you are.
So I think it's time to leave. Confession is over. 3/10/2002 06:44:00 PM
Okay, I've tried to get as much of this page up as I can. I promise I will add more later.
3/10/2002 01:55:00 PM